What do you do when you can't relate to anyone more, absolutely trapped in your own world? I have really been trying to connect with other people but I feel like a needle in a field of haystacks. I feel my gifts are my curse, even though I know they are not. I can pull energy into the palms of my hand in a seconds notice. Gaze into someone's eyes and read their soul. Paint a future in which my friends scorn with contempt and skepticism. I can dream ten worlds over in one night with time being only a mirage during the waking hours. I see the anger, the stress, the strife in which every person I interact with and how it consumes their life. I speak of hope, and even my own parent's think I am a child still in my idealistic visions. My passion propels me headlong everyday into the vast library of knowledge. I see myself superior even every way to those around me, yet I know in truth that is not so. My anger seems to blind me from my goal at hand, yet fuel my inferno to never give up. I have never met anyone who has ever understood me and I know that day will eventually come. And for that, I have realized that such truth comes with a price, a pain like no other. Until that day, I shall try, I will, continue to simply just smile as I know there is beauty here worth living for, worth saving. So hopefully right now, within this moment right here, you can smile with me, as we are not alone.
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Re: Isolated in Thought
Thu, March 6, 2008 - 5:04 PMah... i remember being like that.. nearly drove myself mad.. still am to some extent.. (mad or disconnected.....both!)
why are you disconnected? truly why? and why so angry...
where is it stemming from...is it even your own emotion?
people will scorn and ignore what they dont want to hear... and also no matter how "closed" they appear..they will pick up on your anger and give it back to you.. so then it becomes a circle...
open your heart.. others will open themselves to you too..
i dream too... dream of a world of tolerance and learning... nature and humanity respected and loved... even though it seems nobody else around me seems to want that.. i want it... and for all of humanitys failings... i hope...and place faith in the very people that i may despair over..
unconditional love.... the saving grace..
love light & courage..
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Thu, March 6, 2008 - 6:24 PMwere you once one of those people that you currently feel so disconnected from? If so, try to understand that it truly is up to the soul of a person to want to open oneself and escape the imaginary prison they constructed. Carry in your thoughts the idea that change is beautiful and good and inevitable; and also be open to anything. With that radiating from you, it is bound to effect the world. I know there are infinite ways to bring about hopeful change, but this non violent, subtle way seems to work for me. Of course I can only speak for myself, but maybe this helps. you are not alone! -
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Sat, March 8, 2008 - 5:13 AMI understand
Keep going
What you believe in is real. It is met with such a wall... because to fully manifest the energy of your visions... just a little snivle of a vibe being born... forces everyone who feels it to question their own choices. You know this.
And you know it is real too. Your anger comes, because the walls are being made, and you are being told it is your fault. Your fault. Your vault.
why? Because it is the joy you manifest,that raises peoples fears and pains.Why? Because we have to face our fear and pain before we can feel this joy. Why because fear and pain take a lot of energy.
And you are angry, because they are not moving through it, and you are trying to.
Friends?
Aquantances.
Follow your truth.
Let nothing stand in the way.
the anger will fade when you face it
and honor what of it is yours
and choose love.
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Mon, March 10, 2008 - 10:34 AMIt has been one of the greatest joys of my life to have found Tribe and to realize that not only am I not alone in what I know and feel, there are many, many, many like me--and they were always there. I just didn't know. This feeling to me is the most important bliss and I know that I am being joined to these others because that is the wave, that is what is happening at this time, on purpose. Just reach out with your heart and call and you will be answered, because now it's possible - when before, it wasn't.
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Sat, April 5, 2008 - 10:17 AMI'd like to add a side note: You are being called to Be. Go with it. I know how tough it is to leave people behind who are too afraid to evolve, you gotta leave them where they choose to be and go forward to where you feel is the right place. That is our goal. We, as Indigos need to network and work together to help ourselves evolve which in turn accelerates the pace of the rest of the pack. We are the catalyst. Those who are ready will follow and catch up, there will be many left behind. That is the nature of the Universe, culling of the heard dear. It's harsh, but necessary for us to evolve as a whole. What does not work needs to be let go, given back to the universe.
Here's a contemplation: It's not your fault. I am sorry. May you have a better life.
Love and Light to you and the rest of my fellow Indigos
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Sat, April 5, 2008 - 10:43 AM>What you believe in is real. It is met with such a wall... because to fully manifest the energy of your visions... just a little snivle of a vibe being born... forces everyone who feels it to question their own choices. You know this.
good point! i know this feeling well. i also notice that the friendshiops i lose because i choose to be true to myself are always the least healthy relationships in my life.
Just keep on going and it gets better, promise.
Those that are meant to help you on your path, will.
many blessings to everyone on this fine saturday!
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Re: Isolated in Thought
Sat, April 5, 2008 - 9:18 AMKeep developing your gifts. The isolation you feel is a product of this American culture we live in. We live in this culture that entices us to shop and watch TV for satisfaction; a culture that values individualism and not the role an individual can play in society; a culture that sucks creativity from each and every one of us; a culture that often kills those who speak out against the status quo.
Keep manifesting a more positive future. Don't let your "naive" vision and light be extinguished. Do continue to develop your thirst for knowledge and temper your idealism with what is actually manifesting in the lives of other around you.
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Sat, April 5, 2008 - 10:56 AMthe more I attempted to "fit in" with other people, the farther away from them I felt ~ it wasn't until I just gave up on that out of sheer frustration & threw myself into exploring myself, on my terms, that I discovered the unique parts of me that connected me right back to everyone else ~ I had to pull away (the opposite of what my well meaning family was encouraging/pressuring me to do) to find myself & only from there was I able to find my personal point of connection back to everyone else ~ it surprised me, but there was no doubt about it when it finally happened ~ it was easy to *feel* the difference
love all-ways,
mem
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Re: Isolated in Thought
Fri, April 11, 2008 - 5:03 PMSomething that I discovered from my shamanism that you might find helpful: Human beings are not the only sentient beings on this planet; in our arrogance, we think we are . . . and a few of us are beginning to see that the other sentient beings have been here far longer than we have. IF we can let go of our illusion of being “at the top of the evolutionary ladder”, then we just might have the opportunity to communicate WITH these others and KNOW that we are equal with them: not the same—for we are definitely different—but still of equal value & importance: we are neither above no below them.
This may also be helpful to you: connection is a key . . . connection with the earth, connection with the cosmos, connection with yourself and connection with others. Details given upon request.
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Fri, April 11, 2008 - 10:50 PMwhen I was younger ..I felt very isolated and angry at what I saw,felt, and experienced ..
It took me a while ( not saying it doens happen but rarely) but I let go of all that anger...
yes we can see all the chaos but dont let that discourage you....
it doesnt have to be your truth ....
I take these encounters as something I need to learn or something I need to teach ..an exchange of some sort...
Im not looking to change anyone.. Instead Im focusing on the things I may have in common or by example showing my compassion for the things and people of the world and letting whats inside those people come out naturally...
if it werent for our conditioning .. we wouldnt act this way...
the truth comes out if you show it a way ..not by force... just remind them what its like....
and dont worry if it seems unreal to them and they laugh it off....
continue to remind them....
I believe Im here to show it and live it.. and through that I create the very thing that I long for....
I didnt know that then ...
you are not ... as I am not ...nor anyone else for that matter .... better than another....
your ideals are your passions .. find a way to experience them in happiness not covering them in anger...
create them in love.... not comparrisson....
find a place where you can start and channel that positive energy....
your gift is just that.. a gift to give to others ...
not a gift for giving and expecting somethiing in return...
but I believe that you will get something in return anyway but not while your seeking it
to make yourself feel better.
you will get it , feel it, when what you do reflects who you are
and that alone will make you happy and others happy too.
just some thoughts and mostly my experience.....
love and compassion ..
jess
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Fri, April 11, 2008 - 11:53 PMTake in their words. These people truly know what they are talking about. I felt a connection with every post here. Its the truth in all its forms. Forgive yourself, forgive others, for you, as they mean truly no harm. You will bloom beautifully when you reflect on this time, this life segment, the answer and feeling you wish to seek Now, is and always will first and foremost, manifest from you, your inner you, your inner Will, and strength. These battles we face are mental, when the mental is stable, all is stable.
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Re: Isolated in Thought
Sun, April 13, 2008 - 6:59 AMWow, I am shocked by all the responses I really am. I've posted a bunch of my writing in various forums lately, in blogs, with absolutely nothing for responses. Thanks everyone I really appreciate it, you don't even know. Since the post I've actually met a few people just like me surprisingly. I am guessing cause that was my intent, I attracted it. But I am gonna go hang out with someone today and meditate with them so yes, things have gotten better :) Peace & harmony to you all! -
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Sun, April 13, 2008 - 10:38 PMYay Gregor!
I believe we can truly relate ... so we are always here to listen ....and talk with you whenever you need to...
love and compassion to you! -
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Mon, April 14, 2008 - 10:18 PMI can only add that you are a WAY-SHOWER Gregor. I found the same is true for me. Whenever I get down about being the oddball, I just remember that I would not WANT to fit in to anyone's life and style and world view if it meant the usual drivel and sick and twisted thought patterns held by so many many people (most people).
And I remember how to be grateful to have those few around me who I DO fit in with.
Things are really heating up, and those of us who are "in the know" so to speak are going to be called on in the very near future to spread our knowledge as the systems around us collapse. And any system that no longer provide for the needs of the people who participate in the systems is going to collapse right under our noses. This is well under way with the economy/war/political polarization in the USA nad spreading around the globe.
I am so thankful for tribe also, as Lily says. It has been transformative, in many ways. That reminds me to put tribe on my donation list - I have to sign up as a Premium member right now.
LOVE TO ALL
dave
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