i meant new to this stuff lol can we edit a post

The universe is a strange and wonderful place. If fact there are many people who see more than a single universe; this more-than-one space-time is known as the Multi-verse—a multi-dimensional, twisted in/around/ through itself, reality. A reality where truthS are more the norm than is “THE TRUTH”. Confusing? Absolutely! Mysterious? You bet it is! It has been said that the beginning of Wisdom is to realize that there is far more information available than any single person—for that matter, even a whole planet of beings—could ever absorb, contemplate, begin to understand or perceive. For me, searching for answers to questions is way more rewarding than actually finding one or more “this has got to be truth” answers. In my searching, I have discovered that some questions have as their answers, only other questions!

As I see it, the multi-verse is BOTH AND, it is: logical & illogical, plain & extra-ordinary, explorable & unknowable, sane & crazy, friendly/unfriendly/neutral, inside-Me/outside-Me, scientific & magickal, imaginary & tangible & intangible, etc., etc.

As shaman & indigo, I walk between many different worlds. Sometimes I err in how I translate what I perceive: that’s OK, because for me, it’s always an opportunity to learn . . . and then there are times when I think that I have erred, only to find out later that the error was in not seeing that in some situations (perhaps in every situation), the only thing that makes any “real” sense is that which makes no sense at all: as a concrete example of this, ask Stephen Hawking where did the singularity that was “the Big Bang before it went boom” come from.

I feel the time has come for us to explore some of the mysteries of self and the multi-verse . . . together: in two’s, in three’s, in four’s, and so forth. I believe there are some topics that can not even be slightly “opened” by single individuals: it is the connection, trust and love of all those involved that is the secret to finding the answers.

Sincerely,
A fellow seeker

Craziness is just not being able to share the meaning of what you contact with others who can share that reality. You are very gifted to have the experience you have and when you can get to the place where you can communicate with your higher self and still be able to communicate with others who do not believe in such things, and not feel you have to share what is happening or get their approval, then things may be a bit different.

Most people may meditate their entire lives and never make contact with what you have. Find someone you can communicate with about it who is supportive and it is probably a good idea not to talk about it with people who are not on the same page.

Imagine going to a country that has never had a tv and you try to explain watching spiderman. They have no context to understand what you are talking about and will think you are crazy. Its the same thing with internal communications....the key is 'discernment'....know who you are talking with and choose what to talk about. You may have best friends that you love but you know don't believe you....don't worry about it....don't mention it....just enjoy the experiences you have and don't feel the need to share with people who maybe are ten years away from being open enough to getting it.

What you are going through happens with many people. Take it easy...Just make sure that whatever is saying it is your higher self is always having the best intention for you....

About 7 years ago, i tried meditating. i literally had a "pocket guide to meditation". and it just showed the basics of how to relax, etc. So i decided to try it just to relax. the entire process felt so good and my life was changed during those 20 minutes. like you, i had never really been exposed to this stuff, didn't have a real language for it or anything. i was a blank slate who received or had things revealed that were radically different that the way most people see the world. i knew it was true. i was home. i was One with everything past, present, future. I saw many things some of which i hesitate to talk about and i really have had a hard time integrating that peak experience with my everyday life. i have struggled with very human or ego-based things that during meditation i knew were kinda ridiculous. things feel ridiculous when you feel like you've seen the Truth behind it. anyway, i don't have words of wisdom for you, but i want you to know that you are not alone. it helps me to know you are out there too.